I am Thankful for...

So, I've skipped a few days but I still have lots to be thankful for. Here they are...

First, I'm thankful for the fact that my husband is off until next Monday!  He works so hard and deserves a long break...though this isn't long, he takes what he can get!

Second, I am thankful for disposable diapers. That may sound funny but when you have two toddlers on suppositories and Miralax to help get them unconstipated, it's 100% truth!!

Third, I'm so grateful that I have two adorable 16 month old twin girls today!!  I can't believe they are that old. I know all moms say that but it's just so true. It just seems like yesterday that my water broke...in fact, it just seems like yesterday that I gave myself my first shot toward getting pregnant.  How fast time flies!! How quickly the moments go by!! I'm so grateful that I'm desperately trying to "live in the moment & find joy in it"!!!  I want to be happy in my current season, instead of focusing on the past seasons (glory years) and the future seasons (when things will supposedly be better or whatever).   "FINDING JOY IN THE JOURNEY!!"  :)

Fourth, I'm so grateful that the night before last, my little Emma kept me up until 4am!! Again, this sounds weird but let me explain. Emma was crying and crying and crying!! I tried everything but nothing worked. Finally @ 3:30am, I got to the point where I just scooped her up out of her crib and brought her to bed with me.

Now, I'm not one who can sleep with a baby next to me (I'm fearful of smothering them or something) so I didn't even attempt it BUT I thought maybe I could get her to go to sleep. As I lay there with her snuggled into my body, my arms wrapped around her and her adorable head near my shoulder, I swear I felt like I was in heaven. I couldn't believe the feeling of comfort and deep love that filled my soul. I could tell she wasn't asleep because she kept rubbing her little hand on my arm. I think she was enjoying it as much as I was. I wanted to stay in that moment FOREVER!! 

But at about 4am, she started wanting to crawl around the bed so I had to put her back into her crib but as soon as I crawled back into the bed, without my precious baby, I instantly wanted to go back and pick her up again.

In fact, last night I almost went into her room, while she was sleeping, and scooped her up again. With her already asleep, I knew she would sleep for a while at my side. But since I was sleep deprived from the night before, I opted to just get some rest.

I wouldn't put it past me to do it tonight though  :)