The PERFECT Song!!!

Ok, so I had absolutely nothing to blog about except for that fact that I've been sick with strep throat and that I thought it was going to kill me. I had decided to skip that entry because who really wants to hear about my inability to swallow? But then, I checked my friend Jackie's blog and there it was.......the song!!!! She had posted a song that she thinks should be the Twilight theme song!! So, of course, I went to Youtube and listened to it. I seriously got chills because it seriously is perfect!! It's Bella, totally Bella!!! Those of you who have already read the books and have become addicted to them, you will for sure agree about the song. And for those of you who haven't started yet, the song may motivate you to begin. But you have to listen to the actual words and not just the chorus!! I will post the lyrics below, for those of us who want to take our time analyzing the meaning behind each verse.....Edward, sigh.....( I have to throw in a sigh or two just to keep Greg a bit jealous of my fiction-man!!)

Here are the lyrics... (the actual link for the song is at the bottom of this post)

“LOST ” by Faith Hill

Is it obvious to you
When you walk into a room
Your face is all I see
And my heart races so fast
I never knew a rush to feel like that
Every time you’re touching me

I never did believe in anything
I couldn’t hold between my fingers
But the way you make me feel
It’s just so real the way it lingers

I get lost inside your stare
Lost when you’re not there
When everything I have doesn’t mean a thing
If it’s without you
If it’s a dream, don’t wake me up
I’ll scream if this isn’t love
If bein’ lost means never knowin’
How it feels without you
I wanna stay lost forever
I wanna stay lost forever with you

No, this feeling doesn’t end
It’s with me everywhere I am
Hope it never goes away
It’s like defying gravity
Losin’ all control and bein’ free
And I always wanna stay

I never thought that I’d let go
Long enough to fall for someone deeply
Who had the power to erase my fears
And find me so completely

I get lost inside your stare
Lost when you’re not there
When everything I have
doesn’t mean a thing
If it’s without you
If it’s a dream, don’t wake me up
I’ll scream if this isn’t love
If bein’ lost means never knowin’
How it feels without you
I wanna stay lost

Don’t tell me where we’re goin’
I don’t wanna know
I like the mystery (I like the mystery)
I can’t believe we’ve come this far
So far away from where we started off
You found me when I wasn’t lookin’
You found me

And now I’m lost inside your stare
Lost when you’re not there
And everything I have doesn’t mean a thing
If it’s without you without you (Without you)
If it’s a dream
Don’t wake me up
I’ll scream if this isn’t love
If bein’ lost means never knowin’
How it feels without you
Yeah, if bein’ lost means never knowin’
How it feels without you
Oh, if bein’ lost means that I’m never
Gonna be without you
I wanna stay lost forever
I wanna stay lost forever with you

Jackie!!!!

Jackie, I am so glad that you have finally admitted to your uncontrollable attraction to the Twilight series, or should I just say... "Edward". I knew if you just got past the "dress shopping" part, you'd be hooked. I did try to respond to your post on your blog but it didn't let me. I think it may have been my computer, it has issues these days!!! I do want to warn you, and everyone else who gets hooked on these books that Book two is the book you seriously won't be able to put down!!! You just can't!!! That's the book I read in one day!!! 600 pages in ONE DAY!!!! Insane!!!

Let me know what you think once you get started on "New Moon". I'm just dying to hear your take on all of it!!

Now for those of you who haven't yet taken my challenge to read these books, all I have to say is that yesterday at church, during the "Good News Minute" I expressed that I have finished the 3rd book in the Twilight series (which probably was more bad than good news) and the whole room started buzzing!!! Edward has a lot of fans out there!!! Just give in and start reading!! This means you too, Karie!!! I know your more of a non-fiction reader, but I really think you'll like them. And once you're hooked, I'll get you an "official member" T-shirt!!! It'll be great :)

Happy reading everyone!!! :)

Yes! I'm still alive!!

I just wanted to let everyone know that I am still alive and kicking. I will shortly begin returning emails and phone calls!! To those of you who came to my door and I was unable to answer it because I couldn't put my book down, even just for a second, it is now OK to again come knocking!!

Not last night but the night before, I finished the 3rd book in the Twilight series. And of course, it left me hanging not knowing exactly what will happen even if it's implying that something is coming in the next book. I just don't know how I will make it until "Fall 2008"!!! Seriously?!? They can't put it out sooner than that?!? So, I am once again reading the first book, just to keep my mind occupied and also because I have to get my "Bella & Edward" fix!!!

So those of you who don't know me too well, probably think I am some sort of psycho!! Those of you who know me almost as well as I do myself (Karie?) know that this is just me. Truthfully, I am a bit quirky!! I admit it!! So, I tend to become obsessed and addicted to things........like chocolate covered pretzels, for instance. Usually I tend to obsess over a certain food or movie and when I do, I just have to eat that certain food or watch that certain movie, over and over again!!! I just can't control myself. Usually after a while, the obsession slowly fades. So, my fear with this whole book thing (which usually doesn't happen because I DONT READ!!) is that it has serveral other books still up and coming!! (It will be years until I can get this out of my system and to tell you the truth, I'm not sure if I want to!!) Of course, I can't wait until the 4th is released but she's also working on a book that mirrors the 1st book but it's coming from Edward's first person other than Bella's. So we'll get to see his point of view!!! She has posted the first 20 pgs of that book on her website and let me just say, it's amazing!!!! I can't wait!!! So, one final point that I would like to share is that I am now an official member of the "I Love Alice" and "I Love Edward" fan clubs!!! Yes, I admit it, I even ordered the T-shirts, so I will be sporting my new prized possessions within a couple of weeks!!! I am sooooooo excited!!!

I also want to point out that I have happily passed on my obsession of these books to my dear mother, who is almost through with the first book and also my dear friend Jackie, who is a little more hesitant about admitting her obsession but she can't hide it from me :) My mom saw her in Walmart carrying the book with her so that when she went out to eat with her husband's family, she could hopefully get a chance to read some of it!!! I swear, once you get past a certain part of the book, there's no turning back!!! It's like some sort of drug in your system, or something!!! You might as well just enjoy the addiction because you can't get rid of it. So Jackie, I plan on checking you blog here shortly, and I would like to see at least one small paragraph admitting to your "drug" addiction and instead of fighting it, embrassing it!!! :)

I think I better go get ready for church! I hopefully will get to talk with Kelsee (the girl who introduced me to Edward Cullen, sigh....) so that I can let her know the monster she has created. She won't find it hard to recognize it in me because she too is a monster herself :)

...the addiction continues......

I stayed up until 2 am last night, reading the beginning of the 2nd book! After about, oh, 3 1/2 hours of dreams filled with story lines that I hoped would come next in the book, I woke up!! Then my mind was going a mile-a-minute because I just had to know if what I hoped was going to happen, was actually going to happen. After about 30min of tossing and turning because my mind wouldn't let me fall asleep, I finally gave in and turned on the light and began reading again!! All today I continued to read, any spare moment, which were plentiful since Hannah's in school all day and Gabe takes two 2 hour naps, and by about 6 pm I had finished the 2nd book!! All 563 pages of it!! That is definitely a world's record for me!! :) I have to say that the 2nd book was very intense and I actually felt like I was forgetting to breath a lot of the times!! I felt myself not wanting to turn the page because I wasn't sure I was going to be able to handle what might be next!! It was almost emotionally overwhelming to read!!! BUT it was WONDERFUL!!!!

So, tonight I hope that I won't be compelled to read than more that an hour or two because the 3 1/2 hours of sleep that I received last night is not happenin' for me!! I actually am hopeful I will be able to read this book slower because it's the last one she has released!! What am I going to do until the next one comes out?!? I'll have to reread the three I have over and over again, just to get my fix!!! Truly Unbelievable!!!

I did want to point out one thing that I meant to state on the last post and that is that these books are not "LDS" books!! They are written by an LDS author but have nothing to do with my faith. So for my Friends who aren't LDS, you'll be fine to read these. The New York Times has "Twilight" listed as the best book of the decade so far!!! That should tell you how good these are :)

Enjoy because I know I will :)

"Twilight"

Ok, so I admit, I do NOT like to read, well, except for the scriptures, of course. I have never really enjoyed sitting down and reading a book! It's just not me (as sad as that fact may be). Well, while visiting teach this month, I had one of my sisters on my route insist I read the books that she has recently became addicted to. I took the book from her out of kindness and told her I would read a little if I had time.........well, here I am not having time for anything else BUT reading this book!!! I finished it off today, I think I read 220 pgs!!! I didn't even get my stack of dished done in my sink! And as soon as I finished the first book, I HAD to run out and buy the 2nd & 3rd!! So, here I am leaving my house at about, oh, 6:45pm when Hannah usually starts getting ready for bed at 7pm!! But that wasn't going to stop me..."she can sleep in the car" I justified in my own brain!! So off I went to Walmart, which didn't have it, so then I decided to go to Deseret Book. Ok, while I was in the Walmart for 30min. some HUGE storm had blown in and I could hardly see infront of my face because the wind was blowing so hard and there were tree branches down all over the place, and carts flying everywhere, but was that going to stop me?!?!? NO WAY!!! Off we went to the book store which is in the same shopping area as Walmart!! I finally made it into the store, Gabe's head covered with a blanket-which he fought the whole way in- and Hannah grasping my other arm with a death grip becuase she didn't want to open her eyes for fear of a tree branch smacking her in the face or maybe she said she didn't want dirt in her eyes, whatever it was, she wasn't opeing her eyes for nothing!!! But we made it in the store, all in one piece!!! Then the hunt was on!! Where were the books?? I did a quick walk thru but didn't see them so I went up to the counter to ask the worker if he knew where they were. Once up there I realized that I didn't know the author's last name, I only knew her first name was Stephanie. As soon as her first name was out of my mouth, the worker said, "....Meyer!" I was floored!! He knew exactly who I meant and I hadn't even told him the name of the first book!! He quickly took me to the books and I picked up a copy of the 2nd and 3rd book. The first was gone and he says that it's really hard to keep any of them on the shelf so I was lucky to find two at the same time!!

So, here I am at home getting ready to snuggle in with my new addiction.....sorry chocolate covered pretzels but there's someone new in town and it's a lot less fattening!!!! The kids are in bed, my mom is at my grandmother's, and Greg is in Denver!! I have all evening to read as much as I can in the second book. To put this into perspective for those of you who know me too well, I am actually foregoing watching "Big Brother" tonight so that I can read this book!!! That's how much I am addicted!!!!

So, of course I am going to recommend all of you out there to read these books!! They truly are moving, completely amazing!!! And for those of you who "don't read" like me, do it anyway, you'll be happy you did!!

Here's the info....

Author: Stephenie Meyer--she graduated from BYU with a degree in English Lit.
1st book "Twilight"
2nd book "New Moon"
3rd book "Eclipse"

She states on her website that there will be 9 books in the series and that they will be making a movie of the first ones in the near future. You have to check it out!!! And if you chose not to, you can't blame me when you realize how much you've missed out on :)

Happy Reading!!! :)

Quick Thought..."Putting Things into Perspective"

Most of you may have heard about the little girl who had gotten into a severe wreck with her family, on their way to Idaho. Most of you may know that they are from our Stake and that they lived in White Hills. Most of you may know the outcome and that this little girl's mother, father, and 2yr old sister were all killed in the wreck, leaving her the sole survivor of the family. Some of you may have been affected from this hitting so close to home. So, that was a few weeks ago and the little girl's family has been buried and she is now with relatives. A tragic story that really hit me hard, because we really never know when we will return to our Heavenly home. I have pondered several times wondering how Hannah would handle such a situation if that were us and she were the sole survivor! I have decided to do even more "sentimental" stuff for my children, just in case I die before they are really old enough to remember me. My grandfather died when I was 12 and I lived next door to him from about the age of 5, and I still have very few memories that are clear in my mind. The fear of Hannah not really remembering me, haunts me!!

So anyway, I had thought about the above tragedy and contemplated what changes I was going to make in my life. The sorrow from the situation has slowly faded, until just minutes ago.

Greg is on our Stake High Council, and today he is overseeing the Stake baptisms. He had quickly come home for lunch and told me that he was going to be there a little longer than the schedule had planned for because there had been a slight change in it. One of the families had moved their baptism to the end spot extending his time there about an hour. I began to be annoyed but before I could get too deep into my annoyance, Greg's face told me that I had no right. He went on to say that the baptism that was moved was for that little girl who lost her family and that family & friends were coming from all over to come support her (approx 175) on this day that she had looked forward to and planned on spending, being baptized by her father.

So here I sit, once again extremely sorrowful for that little girl and the situation that was placed before her but completely grateful that she has so many friends and family to come support her with this wonderful choice she is making. May God truly bless her and her family and may we never take any moments for granted!!

I Remember When........

Ok, so I was looking through some of my old photos on my computer and I saw some cute ones that I just have to share with everyone!! They are so special and precious!! I can't believe how fast our little ones grow!! I wish I would have had digital photos of Hannah as a baby because the youngest I can go with her is 3yrs. So, if you want, take a trip down "memory lane" with me....

Hannah in January 2004, yes she's in short sleeves because we lived Texas!! Nice and warm there, almost all year round. I used to love putting her hair into little pony tails because she looked so cute!! And the pose she's doing in this one is a "Hannah original". She started doing it about this age and has yet to stop.

Pretty in "Orange". I loved that outfit!! I had to pin the shirt to the shorts or else the top turned into a belly shirt which doesn't happen in our house. She always looks so so good in the bright colors! She has such beautiful skin!!

This is Hannah dressing up like "mommy". I definitely took it as a compliment! And, yes, I ALWAYS carry around my maracas with me wherever I go!! You better believe it!! I just remember how proud she was and I also remember it took her quite a while to get her "mommy" outfit just right!! A masterpiece!!

Hannah and one of her many, many CareBears! She was obsessed with CareBears and to be quite honest, she still loves them! I just remember her doing her "CareBear Stare" at every fly, butterfly, ant, or any other creepy-crawly that would come her way. She believed whole-heartedly that the CareBear Stare would send them a packing! I remember one time, when she was quite young probably about 2-2 1/2 yrs., we were staying at a hotel and she was trying and trying to get up onto the bed. Well, she was just too little but I found it entertaining to watch her try. Then she got her little serious face on and went over and stood by the door. Then with all her might she poked out her belly, placed her hands on her belly, then with a loud voice yelled, "Care....Bear....Stare!!!" and then ran full-force towards the bed. I was somewhat taken back by it because like I said before, she usually only "stared" bugs, but I quickly reacted and when she tried to leap onto the bed (she was in no way going to make it) I grabbed onto the waist of her pants and helped the "CareBear Stare" out, just a little bit! I still get a good laugh when I envision it in my mind! She is just so creative and amazing to me!

Cute little Hannah on one of her Preschool Fieldtrips! She had a lot of fun at this pumpkin farm. I just can't believe she's now in 1st grade, when this photo feels like it was taken yesterday!! How does that happen?!?

Hannah and her brand new baby brother!! Gabe is 1 day old in this photo and this was the first chance Hannah had gotten to see and hold him. Don't they look adorable together?!?

Pure love...Pure bliss!! Hannah had waited so long for a baby brother when the time finally came, it was perfect, it was love at first site!!

Gabe was 8 days old in this photo. Isn't he cute!?! I can't even really remember him being this little. I am so thankful for photos because without them, I'd forget actually how little my children once were!!

Hannah and 12 day old Gabe, at Hannah's preschool graduation. I can't believe how little Gabers looks in that carseat!!

This is Gabe's first 4th of July photo. We had our friends out visiting us! Gabe's little shirt says "lil' firecracker" on it. And at the time I guess it really didn't fit his personality BUT it sure does now!! If you don't believe me, just watch him during church!! He's a crazy little man!!

This photo was taken July 29th when Grandpa Matthew was out from Florida for a visit. I just can't help but smile when I see this photo. I love Gabe's BIG eyes!!

This is a classic Gabe face. When he was little you could always tell when he was wondering or amazed at something because this is the look he'd get on his face. This time, if I remember right, he was interested in the camera. I think he was trying to figure out the flash!!

Gabe and his Hero, Da-Da! We had gone to a local corn maze and spent some time together as a family. I think Gabe's little hat is too cute!!

This is little Gabe on Halloween night, 2006. It was cold, as usual, and so we had to wrap him up in his stroller. You can probably hardly tell, but he was a football player and a cute on at that!!

Well, that's it for now but I'm sure I could have gone on forever!!! But I will spare you the endless photos that I have taken of my children. They are such a miracle in my life and I couldn't imagine one day without them!! How blessed I am! How truly blessed I am!!